Since I don't have the energy to thank each and every angel in my life, I will try this way.
I am taking care of myself
The books tell me to
My family tells me to
My friends tell me to
My colleagues tell me to.
So I am doing my best
Even though I don't want to
I only want the one thing I can't have
What keeps me getting up each day
and brushing my teeth..
The incredible attention from my kids
Being put back together in Seattle by friends
Yet another card in the mail
A friends dream of Mark
A Mexican dish from a marimba friend
Dinner after my massage
Yoga and walks with friends
A friend checking in on me at lunch every day
Emails of support
Offers of places to get away
Offers to talk
Offers to listen
Phone calls from my family and friends
Dinner with my bridge girls
Even kind words from my dentist
They say it will get better. I wonder when.
When will I not feel blown apart
Tossing in a sea of "normal" people
Minute by minute I keep going..
So this is how I do it even when I don't want to
Kids
Grandaughter
Friends
Parents
Siblings
All of you who care
Thank you and Love to you
My darling, Kathy: Jennifer Tucker told me about Mark and I posted something on your facebook, but Jennifer said you don't use it much. She told me about your blog this morning.
ReplyDeleteSo I read this and cried. And looked at your picture and cried. You know that Mark was extra special to me, as you are. I cannot conceive how much pain you are in. But truly, just know that I am with you in Spirit, even though I am far away. I love you. I adore you.